Monday, December 9, 2013

Connections



The snow falls
  Quietly
    Calmly
      Straight down.

Each flake can be followed as it passes the window,
  gently moving in connection with the other flakes.
   Softly bumping
      Joyfully jostling.


They land.
  Be here they whisper.
    See us now, they whisper.
      As they connect with each other and to all that surrounds them.


Monday, September 16, 2013

Fire Evacuation and Awareness


I'm writing a blog post that is very different than the one I planned as I drove home less than 24 hours ago from 4 nights at the Jackson Lake Lodge.


Imagine 4 days with the above view of the Tetons, combined with a 3 day Majestic Stillness retreat with Lorna Lange at Synergy Wellness and Fitness (What are you telling me you still have not experienced one of Lorna's retreats?  You are missing out!). But I digress....

This was followed by a beautiful drive through Yellowstone and all the way home to Missoula on Sunday.  We arrived home at a decent hour, enjoyed dinner, some Sunday night football and the last 1/2 of "Field of Dreams".  Who can't smile and feel good after "Field of Dreams"?

As I head up the stairs to bed about 9:40 PM thinking, "If I build it will they really come?" our phone rings and the evening takes a turn. 

The lightening storm that was happening as we watched the movie had landed a lightening strike about 9:10 PM not far from us, about 1-2 miles, and a fire had started.  Our neighbor was watching it and wanted to let us know that with the current high winds, we had a good chance of being evacuated and should prepare..... 

The following chain of events:
     We open suitcases, take out dirty clothes and insert new clean clothes.  I immediately try to use my new tools  as I feel myself tense.  I bring awareness to my jaw and neck and breath into it.  It relaxes.  Two minutes later I have to do it again. And on and on....

     We answer the question if you must leave a building that might not be there when you return what would you take and put by the door the computer, the file with the passport, marriage license, and birth certificate, a few key pieces of jewelry, the yoga mat and relatively little else. I realize my breath is much more shallow than normal.  I stop and breath deeply through my nose and back out and extend my breath.  Two minutes later I have to do it again.  And on and on...

    We decide we might as well try to get some sleep.  I breath, I bring awareness, and then I repeat Loving Kindness Meditation.  I catch myself worrying and repeat those steps. Again. 

      11:35 PM there is a knock at the door - we are being evacuated. It's ok - I wasn't sleeping yet anyway. 

     We pack the car with everything by the door.

     12:20 PM we drive away from our home in both vehicles and the fire is about 50 acres.  We get to the hotel and fall in bed.  I lay in bed confident my home is ok and this is just precautionary, and still my throat is clenched shut.  I breath, I bring awareness, and then I repeat Loving Kindness Meditation.  I catch myself worrying and repeat those steps. Again. Again. I finally fall asleep.

    We awake with about 5 hours of sleep and check to find the fire is about 200 acres.  I breath and try to relax my throat and open my computer to work.  While tired, I feel mostly calm.

     We do some work and go to previously planned meetings.... and check the news every 10 minutes for an update.  I remember again, I need to breath, lengthen my breath, relax my throat and bring awareness to what is clenching within me.

     11:30 AM we find out our evacuation has been lifted, they feel like the fire is mostly under control and houses are safe. The area is only open to residents.  I smile and yet keep realizing my throat is clenched.

At this point we are safe and back in our house.  The evacuation was just a precaution because should the winds change suddenly they wouldn't have time to evacuate everyone and there is only one road out.  As of right now the fire is under control.

I still feel tired and tense, but calm. I realize I could not have had a more intense situation directly after this retreat in which to practice every tool I learned and wonder, "What would I be like if I didn't have these tools?"  I am sure I would be more tired and anxious.  I would be overreacting and definitely not still planning on going to Barre class tonight after I pick up my CSA vegetable share.  I am thankful for these tools of breath and awareness.

I take my last sentence here to recognize that there are people in Colorado in much more dire straights than this and I send all the warmth and compassion possible to them as they struggle to help themselves and neighbors to survive the floods.

May the people in flooding CO areas be Safe.
     May they be Happy.
          May they be Healthy.
               May they soon be able to again, Live With Ease.


Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Morsel of Mindful Living

Laundry... laundry is something that has to be done.  It's something some people dread and some don't mind.  I find I enjoy laundry more when it's sunny out and I can allow many of my clothes to dry outside.  Why?


It's an excuse to go outside during the work day.   I get to check on the doe who likes to nap under the tree.  I say Hi and talk to her a bit and smell the honeysuckle peeking over the wall.


I get to check on my Lilies, Echinacea, Strawberries, Sunflowers and more in the patio flower bed.  The yellows, pinks, and greens are so bright in the sun and I close my eyes and listen to the bees moving busily from flower to flower.



I get to check out the view on clear days.  Just looking at this view reminds me what a great life I have - better make sure I appreciate and enjoy it!


Laundry doesn't sound so bad now, does it?





Friday, August 30, 2013

Stuffed Eggplant

I haven't been posting many recipes lately.  To be honest my digestive system is all whacked and painful again.  So I'm just trying to figure that out and trying to get through all the veggies from my CSA box each week.  This usually leads to a vegetable juice type thing every morning and salads.  But yesterday I was tired.  I was tired of searching for the answer, tired of being sore, and I really wanted something a bit savory and yummy - but something that hopefully didn't make everything worse.

So reviewing my stash of vegetables I realized I needed to use up some of my eggplant.  So that led me to create the following stuffed eggplant recipe AND it was GOOD!  So here it is, sorry for the poor pictures.

This recipe could be tweaked to suit you and the veggies you have in your fridge so treat this as a guideline.  You could switch and make it Stuffed Zucchini, add sliced kale or other greens, or add a variety of other herbs.!


Christine's Stuffed Eggplant
  • Preheat your oven to 375.
  • Wash and cut the ends of your eggplant.  Cut in half and slit each half down the middle, not cutting through the skin.  Sprinkle cut sides with salt and set aside.
  • Gather the veggies you want to sauté for the stuffing.  In 1 Tablespoon coconut oil (use oil of your choice) I sautéed the following in order:
    1. 3 slices of onion, chopped
    2. 1 clove of garlic, minced
    3. 1/2 zucchini, chopped small
    4. 1 roasted poblano pepper, chopped
    5. 1/2 small spicy pepper (from my CSA - I don't know what kind it is!)
  • Check your eggplant. If the salt has brought out lots of nice moisture, soak it up with a paper towel.  I decided the eggplant needed a bit of preheating.  I suggest popping it in the oven for 10 minutes or in the microwave for 2-3 minutes.  I used the microwave as I was ready for it.
  • At the end of the sauté I added salt, pepper, 5 leaves of chopped basil and stirred.
  • Sprinkle the vegetable sauté on top of the precooked eggplant.
  • Optional: I needed a treat so I sprinkled crumbled feta and chopped walnuts on top of the sautéed vegetables.  This was my main course and the eggplant does get pretty soft so the nuts added good texture.
  • Pop in the oven covered for 15 minutes.  Uncover and cook another 15 or so minutes until the top looks a little brown with the walnuts and everything is cooked nicely.

Yes, the plate is dirty because these were seconds for me - but really - it was just stuffed eggplant!

Today's Tip: Roasted Peppers:  Anytime I want a little extra flavor from my pepper I turn on a burner and roast it!  For something like this I left that yummy roasted skin on for flavor, but if I want to take the skin off after roasting them I drop them into a paper bag (no fingers - use your tongs) and close it up for about 15 minutes.  Tada!  They are cooled a bit and the skin comes right off when you rub it with a paper towel!


Thursday, August 22, 2013

Morsels of Mindful Living


The Lolo Fire Monday 8/19 at about 2,000 acres.

Fire.. I've always respected fire.  If anything, the diligence my Grandma Graff always had making sure the camp fire was put out instilled that respect in me.  The first time I learned to fear fire though was back in 2002.  While hiking the John Muir Trail, Joe and I hiked through an area that had recently burned, but more importantly was still burning.  The account of this fire can be found on Day 13 of the hike.   But now that we live out West, every year we are humbled by the strength of fire.

We arrived back in Missoula to find the above fire, named the Lolo Creek Complex fire.  This picture is taken from near the end of our road of the Bitterroots.  The fire started during the weekend from a lightening strike, but took off on Monday and both Monday and Tuesday had periods where it was out of control and just running down the mountain.  As of Thursday, this fire is the #1 fire priority in the United States at this moment and it's reported to be over 9,500 acres.

We cannot open our windows as the smoke is so thick around our house and most of the time it's like we are in a fog bank.  Our view had not been as clear as the first picture since Monday night.  

Yet, we are lucky.  This particular fire won't reach us and we can stay in our home, while others are evacuated and wondering about their home.


I feel....
Sadness for those that have already lost their home.
Fear that someone on our hillside will inadvertently start a fire, or that lightening will strike closer in the upcoming storms.
A slight sinus headache from the smoke that has seeped in into the house.
Wonder at the strength of fire and the determination of the people who fight wild fires all summer long.

I smell... smoke.
In the house, it's a light smoky smell, almost a "thick" air smell.
Outside it's like you are standing right next to a big campfire.

I hear...
Fans, as we work to keep a closed up house bearable without air conditioning.
When the fans are off, I hear constant helicopters and low planes.  As of this morning there were 9 helicopters tending the fire.

Despite the thick air, I feel thankful for my breath.  My breath calms me as I watch the fire and it slows and allows me to sleep well even though the air is smoky.

Thursday, August 15, 2013

Morsels of Mindful Living


Just a quick post today on an item that is helping me be mindful. 


This image has been making me very happy lately!  I got it off a facebook post and made it my computer background.  Then I started thinking, hmmm this is signed.   I hope Katie will forgive me for posting very beautiful illustration.  I googled, Katie Daisy.  If you enjoy this image, check out her Etsy site, http://www.etsy.com/listing/128828750/11x14-go-slowly-veritcal-print?ref=listing-shop-header-0.  I love her illustrations and am just trying to decide which one to buy!

It's always good to surround ourselves with beautiful reminders of how we want to live our life, like mantras, and nothing could be more apropos for me right now than this lovely quote from Thich Nhat Hanh, a Zen Buddhist Monk.

Smile. Breathe. And Go Slowly.

Friday, August 9, 2013

Morsels of Mindful Living



Joe and I sit next to each other on the concrete seating in Caras Park.  It's a Wednesday mid-day.  I've just finished an excellent Pilates class and Joe picked me up and we came downtown to this week's "Out to Lunch" event.  We had just grabbed two spots to sit and listen to The Clumsy Lovers play and I pause...

I feel ...

The warmth of the sun as it hits my head and the backs of my bare arms. 
The warmth of the concrete on which I just sat.
That my legs are slightly tired and wobbly from Pilates class.
That I'm hungry!

I smell...

The scents of the many food items for sale, including the wood fired pizza, not far from us, and the spicy scents from the many Asian food carts.
The river as it flows behind us.

I hear...

The instruments, especially the banjo and fiddle player as they move through the music. 
The melodic, friendly, and upbeat voice of the female singer.
The laughter of the children on the lawn between us and the band dancing to the music.
The conversation of the two friends behind us catching up.
A shout as a woman calls out to a group walking by and jumps up to hug people she hasn't seen in awhile.

I feel...  Very thankful. 

Thankful that Joe and I can both enjoy this venue and take time out on a Wednesday.
Thankful that we live here, in this town, with these amazing and talented people.

Every Wednesday from 11 AM to 2 PM Missoula has live music, food, and kids activities downtown.  Such a great town.

Monday, August 5, 2013

Raspberry Ice Cream


You'll be happy to know I do intend to keep mixing recipes in with the Morsels of Mindful posts.  We've been traveling and entertaining so it's hard to properly test recipes, but here is one I've been meaning to post for awhile.

We have raspberry bushes.  No seriously - a lot of raspberry bushes!


And these bushes are serious about producing raspberries, both red and golden.


So, Joe has been enjoying raspberries on his cereal every day.  I have almost 2 gallons of frozen raspberries.  I made a small batch of jam, raspberry crumble bars, and now raspberry ice cream.

I, of course, based my recipe on the Raspberry Ice Cream recipe from The Ultimate Ice Cream book with a few changes.  If you make ice cream and you watch my blog hopefully you already have the book!  It's my go to ice cream book.

Here is the recipe I used:

Put 3 egg yolks in the food processor.  Add 3/4 cup honey and 1/2 cup water to a pan and place over low heat until the honey dissolves.  Bring to a boil and stir for 3 minutes.  Slowly add the syrup to the food processor as it runs. 

Add 3/4 pound raspberries, 1/4 t. salt and 1 T. fresh lemon juice and process.


Strain the mixture through a strainer to remove the seeds and add 1 cup cream and 1 cup half and half.  Stir and cool completely before putting it into your ice cream maker.  


This was easier than most ice creams, since I didn't have to make a custard on the stove top.  I just love making my own ice cream.  Recently I also made a Lavender Honey ice cream (using my own Lavender) and a Peanut Butter ice cream.

When I served this ice cream, I served it with chopped dark chocolate and peanuts as a topping for those that wished.


Yum.  Yum.

Saturday, August 3, 2013

Morsels of Mindful Living


Morsels of Mindful Living will be an ongoing post on this blog.  To me, to be mindful is to be in the present with a  kind, open, curious, and non-judgmental attention.

I hope you enjoy these posts.


Driving up the hill toward town I go faster than normal, I'm late and I don't like being late.  Coming around a curve I quickly come upon a car going 30 in this 45 mph zone.  I step on the brakes and immediately turn to anger, then I pause... not immediately, but within a few thoughts before we reach the top of the hill, I pause...

I feel ...

Tense.
My jaw is clenched, my neck is tense, my fingers tap impatiently on the steering wheel.
My foot is moving quickly between the brake and the gas, as if that will help move along the person in front of me.
My stomach is even tightening.

I take a deep breath.

I feel ...

The cool breeze as it enters the window from this much appreciated end of July cool spell.
My shoulders, stomach, and neck slowly relax.
My foot settles patiently on the floor.

I smell...

The moistness in the air from the recent rain, our first rain in almost a month and it's been raining since yesterday.  Lovely.
The rain has brought out the smell of the sage and lilies that I pass.  The smell moves through the window with the cool breeze.

I hear...
A dog bark.
The growl of a lawn mower.
My car quiet as I reach the top of the hill and the engine switches to full electric mode.

I feel...
Thankful to that car for being my much needed "mindful reminder" so when I do get to my appointment I'll be present and able to focus on the person I'm meeting.

Disclaimer: This picture was taken on our road, at a stop, with no other traffic.

Friday, July 26, 2013

Morsels of Mindful Living


Kneeling in the garden I pull back the Lavender with one gloved hand to pull the grasses and weeds around the base with the other gloved hand and I pause...

I feel ...

The pressure of my knees on the kneeling pad, just pressure no pain today;
The warmth of the sun on my back and soaking through my hat to my hair and scalp, as if the hat weren't even there;
The patient movement of my fingers as they work to pull the weeds slowly from the earth to obtain the most root possible.

I smell...

The warm earthy scent of the ground as I break it open;
The scents of the Lavender, Honeysuckle, Echinacea, Mint, Thyme, and Sage that surround me;
How these scents all intermingle and become more focused with the intensity of the sun.

I hear...

The bee's going about their work on the Lavender and Russian Sage.  They buzz all around my head, but we have an understanding that we are beneficial to each other and we allow each other to calmly go about our individual efforts.
The leaves of the trees and the tall grasses as the welcome breeze blows through on the top of our hill.

I follow my breath as I inhale the smells and the garden into my soul were it creates and grows it's own garden of flower memories that will last all winter until spring first blooms again.

Sunday, July 21, 2013

The Teton Crest Trail

Some are aware that Joe and I recently embarked on another backpacking trip.  This one slightly shorter than the past, Uinta Highline Trail, Wyoming Range Highline Trail, the length of the Wind River Range, or the John Muir Trail, but still 38 - 41 miles (depending on who's GPS you believe) is still worth a WooHoo!  So, here's a little info and a lot of pictures from the trip.


We completed the Teton Crest Trail in 4 full days and 3 nights.  This was another trail happily hiked with our great friends, Lorna and Marco. 

Day One
We hiked this trail from South to North we entered the Teton Crest Trail at Teton Pass.  These days many people take the tram up and start there, but no ... that is not acceptable to our men as it's not the official start.

Day one was a day of rolling green up hill climbs, expansive views and flowers, such as the below Arrowleaf Balsamroot.



We took a break around Phillips Pass late morning.


Marco took some really great pictures, like the one above and the next two and many throughout this post.  We are very grateful for his pictures as our camera went dead during the afternoon of day 3.  It's pretty much impossible not to look silly in these hiking hats, but one needs shade during long days of hiking in the sun.  Here's a picture of Joe and I after the break.


Here's Joe with quite the expanse behind him as we head down the other side of Phillips Pass into a new valley with Moose Creek at the bottom.


Day one we camped in the Middle Fork area.  Here you can see the favorite first activity when we are done hiking.  Lorna and I are pumping (filtering) all our water for dinner, the evening and morning coffee, while getting to soak our tired feet in the cool ... ok cold, water.  There were mosquitoes on this night, but it turned out to be the worst night of the trip - which means, surprisingly not too bad!




Day 2
Day two started out gray, but it's kind of nice to have some clouds to keep the sun at bay.  We actually broke camp and hiked a couple miles to Marion Lake to have our breakfast and coffee there.  It turns out I shouldn't hike a couple miles on an empty stomach - live and learn.


It cleared to a partly cloudy/partly blue sky day. 


On day two we saw the Grand for the first time and we began our experience with Marmots.  Our first view of the Grand Teton.


The beginning of the marmots.  After this we saw a lot of  marmots, especially at camp.  On night 2 we hung our packs in the trees to keep the marmots from chewing on them, but they still managed to chew the handle on Lorna's walking pole.


We also saw this grizzly print on day two.  Sorry we didn't put our foot next to it to show you how large it was, but trust me - it was large!  We saw sign of bear, but never an actual bear.


Our lunch spot on Day two was on the edge of the Death Canyon shelf. 


Just a little later we saw this beautiful view of Death Canyon.


On Day two we had a variety of trail types to walk over and through including snow and water. We would end up walking through quite a bit of snow by the end of the trail, which is tiring as it's a bit like walking in sand.


We had two river crossing on the afternoon of day two and Lorna and I like to take our boots off and wear our sandals across.  It keeps our boots dry and always feels so good on the tired feet!


I love my chacos for this and for changing into in camp.


Here, we hiked down toward our day 2 camping spot near Sunset Lake.


We enjoyed our camp spot seen below from the dinner rock.  It was amusing at first to watch the marmots, but we soon realized they were serious.  We finished dinner, hung all the packs, and as we were getting inside our tents rain started to fall.  We were treated to a real storm complete with thunder, lightening, and hail as we lay in our tents.


Day 3
Day 3 started out beautiful!  We packed up and climbed up and out of our basin toward Hurricane Pass.  We paused in our climb to take this picture back over the beautiful Alaska Basin that had been our home the night before.


The morning of Day 3 was exhilarating.  It was a good climb up to the pass, but the person who made that trail did a great job and we just kept climbing up and over.  Then we just all stared.


And took pictures and stared some more....


For this was it, the holy grail of hikers and climbers alike in the Tetons.  The Grand, Middle, and South Teton mountains all lined up for us.  To top it off, three in our party, Lorna, Marco and Joe, have summited Grand Teton.  It was really special for them to see the mountain from this side.  The Grand is the first one in the picture from the left.

The valley below the mountains was almost as impressive and we knew that was our next destination, so after a few more pictures we headed off.


Unfortunately, we didn't take the easy way down.  We missed the trail and ended up belaying down a bit. Joe belayed us all down and then from below a marmot showed us the trail so he backtracked and took the trail down. But turns out it was good practice for day 4! If you look closely in the next picture you'll see me on belay backing down.


The views and valley were as impressive as promised, full of flowers, views, and waterfalls.


In an interesting turn of events as we headed down South Fork of Cascade Canyon the clouds came in and we ended up hiking the last couple miles in rain.  I didn't mind the rain so much, and I was tired that afternoon so just kept hiking headed for our destination of North Fork Cascade, instead of stopping and waiting for the rain to break.  We got there in the rain, but it soon cleared and Joe and I were able to make camp without rain.  The view from camp, yet another view of the Grand, didn't suck.


That night the boys figured out a way to hang our packs from this rock, clear from the marmots.


Day 4
Everyone agreed to get up early on Day 4 as we had a long hike out.  The morning dawned clear and beautiful with the sun rising on the Grand, making it easy to get moving.

After we broke camp, we headed up to Lake Solitude for a brief stop.  We were at the lake by about 7:50 AM.  This is a striking lake.  In the following picture, the lake behind us is so clear you can barely tell the difference between the mountain and the reflection.


We hiked out on Day 4 and it was a full days hike out to String Lake.  Looking at the map you'd think, "can't be too bad, it's all down hill."  You'd be wrong, day four was complete with belaying, using the ice axe to cross long snow fields and then a long down.  The down hills are always harder on my body than the up hills.

In the next picture we are standing at the bottom of a very steep snow field after Paintbrush Divide.  We actually ended up belaying down first snow then rock in the upper right hand corner. The climb up to Paintbrush Divide and then the roping up took a good chunk of our morning.  We are standing here at 11:13 AM.


We then headed down Paintbrush Canyon and out, with increasing views of Leigh Lake, Jackson Lake, and the valley beyond.


At 1:35 PM we took our last break to pump some cold water and soak our feet one more time before heading out and not stopping again until String Lake.


We cooled off briefly at String Lake and then had to head to pick up the other car at Teton Pass.  Joe and I drove back to Missoula that evening, getting in around midnight. 

This was a beautiful, but hard trip.   I ended the trip with only one dead toenail, but my feet were sore for many days.   That said, I'm glad we did it.  To see Grand Teton for three days every time you look up is amazing, not to mention the views, flowers, birds and all other aspects of the trail.